Reaching the 1/2 Mark

Reaching the 1/2 way mark

Well, I am quickly reaching the 1/2 way mark of my year before 40. As I look around and evaluate my progress, I’m pretty damn happy.

I’m at right around 1/2 way through my weight loss goal. I started out at 178 (yikes) a very tight size 12. I am now at 151, and in a loose size 8. 27 pounds down, 26 to go. I’m thrilled to proudly don my bikini to lay out in the sun. I may even wear it to the pool if I can get it through my head that I can. The weight is coming off much quicker now, so with the summer, working with the band more, swimming, P90xing, and watching my diet even better…I will get there BEFORE my birthday, how exciting.

Restless is right on the cusp of being ready for whatever comes our way. There is always that “growing pains” phase at the beginning. No matter how good the musicians are, it still takes time for everyone to mesh together. It still takes time to get the name out there. It takes playing those last minute gigs when people call, it takes playing freebies and benefits sometimes. It’s frustrating when you’re putting that much time, effort and money into something with little to no return. But that’s the way business is. Even though this is our hobby, our fun time, our “drug of choice” it’s still a business, and business takes investment before a profit can be made. We are almost there =)

I’m enjoying the acoustic work with 1/2 of Restless, and I’m excited about another acoustic venture with a fantastic guitar player. So much happening, I may reach that goal of playing at least 2-3 nights a week within the year or soon after. Again, how exciting!

My health is well under control. I’m officially in the normal range weight wise. My cholesterol is low, my blood pressure is low, everything checks out! The Wellbutrin is helping greatly with the depression, which is lessening the anxiety due to less stress. I still have to look for a new therapist to start attacking some of my “issues” with the past & self worth and all that stuff. Also to help with the outbursts of rage that still happen, albeit not nearly as often as they used to. So, we’re not there yet, but major progress has been made.

I’m feeling closer to the girls and to Steve. I feel that our family has become a lot closer & stronger over the last few months. Exactly what I wanted. This is something that must continue to improve. Our family is wonderful, but I know it can get even better if we keep at it.

I’m elated. So much done. No regrets, no feeling like I slacked and let another year go by without fixing things. I’m DOING it, even if everything isn’t at the goal yet, everything is right on track to get there by the deadline. (and really, if I don’t exactly meet the deadline…it won’t be a tragedy if I’m still working at it, right?) I feel so empowered that I made a decision to change my life, started out with baby steps, worked at it every day, steady progress, and there is measurable change.

Rome wasn’t built in a day, or a year, and neither is the rebuilding of a life. Even after these goals are met, there will be exciting new things to reach for. Proving that I am capable of reaching the goals I set is the best gift I could give myself for my 40th birthday!

I’m going to post “before” and “1/2” way photos soon! Be on the lookout.