125 at 40: Making the Best of it

Making the best of it

So, today is September 12th… Wheatland is in the full swing of it’s final afternoon, and I’m not there. I haven’t been there all weekend. It has been kind of depressing =/ But, we just couldn’t justify the cost this year, and I would have had to go alone. NEXT year I’ll be there!

For those of you who have spent more than 5 minutes with me, you know that the Wheatland Music Festival is very near and dear to my heart. It’s my yearly dose of therapy, my rev up for the following year both spiritually, personally and musically. If you’d like to check out what I’m talking about I’ll add some links to the bottom.

I decided that if I couldn’t be at Wheatland I would make the best I could of the weekend. Friday night I played a gig with SugarSmax, which is always a blast (and the extra cash is always a bonus). Yesterday Steve and I tackled a huge job around the house, we cleaned the carpets and got some other housework done.

Today, I am going to finish laundry, do some more stuff around the house, and work on some projects in my creative cave (ie the music/craft/sewing/facebooking room).

It’s been a good day, because well.. all my jeans are officially too big. I don’t have one single pair that fits properly! This blog was started in the first place to document my road to 125lbs at 40 years old. I am now about 18ish pounds away from that goal (gained a little on vacation this summer…but it’s lost again). 18 pounds, wow. I started out barely fitting into a size 12 because they were too small, and now a size 8 is bagging off my ass. It feels good to reach a goal, and be on track.

So, here’s the deal. My music career is WELL on it’s way to being what I want, my house is clean and beautiful, and if I keep pace, I will be at 125 pounds and a nice size 4 by my birthday in January.

After battling (and still battling, but winning) depression, anxiety, lack of self esteem, lack of motivation…I am finally seeing the determination of the past 8 months starting to pay off and come together. What I’ve learned is that nothing happens over night, you have to set realistic attainable goals, and pursue them at a pace that you can actually achieve. Set yourself up for success, but push yourself past your comfort zone…but don’t push yourself so far that there is no way you’ll reach the goal. Find that balance (I tend to use that word a lot in this blog). You CAN reach those goals. Believe me, if I can do it, anyone can…. You will have set backs, that doesn’t mean you’re failing, it just means you need to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and gain back lost ground and keep moving forward.

Even though I’m not where I want to be in body this weekend at Wheatland, I am exactly where I want to be in the whole of my life. I am on the road to fulfilling the goals set at the beginning of the year, and I can feel the work I’ve done setting root in my life, therefore creating permanent change. So, I will embody the Wheatland spirit, and embrace the reasons why I go every year, and rev myself up for another year anyway. Happy Wheatland everyone, may you find your own piece of inspiration and let it work in your life.

www.wheatlandmusic.org

Tim O’brien one of my fav wheatland artists

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gc3vzdhFEV8

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MdDTxvDJ1Rw&feature=related

The Duhks

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xOCqDXocucU

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VYdk_TcCeW8&feature=related

Grada

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FPrNnmudDuk

The Steel Drivers

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OmhSDPojTLE&feature=related

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