Ok here we go. If it's on the internet then it must be true! Yes, I have set my goals for 2010, the year before I turn 40. This blog is about my weight loss journey, but so much more than that. I've lost the weight and kept it off before, I've accomplished many goals in the past. But the past few years I have let my personal needs go by the wayside. Guilt is a powerful thing. I haven't always been the best wife, mother or person in general. I had bought into the idea that I must relinquish what's important to me to pay my penance for all the evil deeds in the past. I realize now that neglecting myself only made me less effective at being the best I could be for the ones I was "sacrificing" for. Guilt only leads to self pity and living in the past.
Finally, I realize that I am a good person who did some not so good things...many years ago. The only person still dwelling on it is me, everyone else has moved on. It's time I do the same. So here's to a clean slate.
So that being said, it's time to get back on track. Here are the 2010 goals:
1 - to be at 125 pounds by my 40th birthday...if I stay that skinny, fine - if I don't, fine... I just want to see it one more time, damn it! Maybe tomorrow I'll be brave enough to post how much I have to lose to reach that goal. (ok fine, it's 46 pounds...blah)
2 - to be running 5 miles at a time.
3 - to be able to do 10 pull ups (currently I can't even get my feet off the ground)
4 - Get my originals onto CD, even if it's a home recording
5 - to get myself into the musical project that fits MY needs, since I'm not in it strictly for the money, the music/quality/style/company better be worth doing it for next to nothing.
6 - continue to improve on my wife and mother skills
7 - get caught up on my scrapbooks
8 - get out there and meet more friends here in NC
That pretty much sums it up. So far this year (all 4 days of it) I have stuck with my Weight Watchers plan. I like it because I have to be accountable and honest about what I'm actually shoveling in my mouth. It worked for me last year, I just got off track... a LOT.
Losing this weight isn't so much about having to be a perfect size 3, I know I'm pretty at my current size/weight. It's more about setting a goal and reaching it, working daily to get there, sticking with it. Steve is right there beside me, and we can get fit together. Mostly I want to feel the best I can, the perk to that is looking good too! Plus, running is free, competitive and something we can do together.
Cya tomorrow!
Shannon
